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A letter to the future…

August 25, 2009

Dear… daughter,

I don’t feel odd writing this. Just… so mature. I’m 17 going on 18, the age you’ll be when you read this for the first time. I don’t know how I’ll be then. Sometimes cranky, over-worked, cynical, the way I see my parents are today. But I don’t want you to see only that me. Maybe I’ll be hardworking, happy and eccentric. For you, I want to preserve some of my ideas, my optimism and my ideals. I want you to meet me, at your age, so many years from now. Beware… I was considered boring, by some.

Right now I’m changing. In small ways, and big. I’ve seen a certain amount of heart break (no doubt I’ll see more) and a great deal of love, more than I could ever wish for. My morals, my ideals, my resolutions, my wants and my beliefs are being formed, being broken, and, formed again with a stronger base. I want to be the President of India. I want to take 6 months off before college. I want to be the most powerful person on earth. I want to spend the rest of my life helping the poor. I want to adopt a girl and I know this is one resolution that won’t be broken. So you’re the one… It’s wonderful to meet you.

I wonder… are you flummoxed by Physics as I am? Do you paint like I do? Who is your role model? Do you know the history of your family? Or your country? Are you loud, like me, or quiet, like your grandmother? I can hear her soft laugh in the next room. Will she still be laughing like that many years from now? There are so many things I want to tell you, things I don’t want to forget, and fear I will. Things that may be ‘too trivial’ in another five years…

Look at yourself carefully every morning. Red streaks, or two plaits; Fat or skinny; knobby knees, or gorgeous legs; Small eyes or mosquito-bite breasts; I want you to be proud of yourself, exactly the way you are. And I want you to remember that, what’s inside, is a thousand times more valuable than what’s outside. I’ve learnt that from my mother, but will she be there to teach you the same? The world will love you and hate you for what you do and what you think. So make sure your thoughts and your actions are stable and reliable and valued enough (by you) to keep you steady and give you strength through anything the world throws at you.

I want you to be bold as I am. Don’t be afraid to stand up and fight when you feel that something’s wrong, but know also when to hold back and keep silent. I’ve learnt this the hard way. I hope you don’t have to.

Don’t be scared of making mistakes. I am, but that doesn’t stop me from making them all the time. It just makes me more conscious of every trip and stumble, when I pick myself up again.

Don’t smoke. This is the one absolute I give you today. Don’t start, because if you do, it will be difficult to quit, and you don’t have to go through that.

I want you to have principles, and stick to them. If you believed something once, you had a reason to think that way. Don’t let peer pressure make you forget what you once stood by. But don’t be stubbornly resistant to change either.

Do you believe in God? I do.

I want you to know, that everyday is a challenge, but that every time you walk out that door, there will be someone waiting for you to get home to whom you can proudly display your battle wounds. There will be people who’ll try to change you to suit their needs, but for each of these, know that there are others who’ll help you change to better yourself. Learn to recognise the difference. I took me ages… you won’t always find people exactly like you, but no matter who you’re with, be yourself.

I want you to read To Kill a Mocking Bird and watch Life is Beautiful.

You have to be strong and believe in yourself, like Atticus, but with that, never loose the innocence of Scout.

Never forget your ambitions, even the ones lost or changed. They have strange ways of cropping up again and fitting into your life. Am I a vet or an editor? Or do I work for the Indian Administrative Service?

Never, ever make the mistake of convincing yourself that your instinct is wrong. If something looks or feels wrong, then it most probably is. Trust your instinct. Remember the cat, Puppy? The one I told you about? If I haven’t yet, then ask me… I once saved him with pure instinct. It’s a long story.

Do I sound like a teenager to you?

Enjoy each day like it’s the last one you’ll live. Is this saying still a cliché?

One day you’ll meet the guy you’ll love. Maybe you’ve already met him. Wasn’t it the headiest feeling in the world when he said he loved you? It was for me. But, also the scariest. It takes a trust I’m still learning to give.

I dream big, and I watch my dreams fall. Right now, I have the strength to rise.

Listen Kid, I love you. I’ve never seen you, but it’s as if I’m talking to myself all over again.

Is this a selfish letter? In a way, yes, but it’s heartfelt.

Lots of Love,

xxx

 

 

EDITED TO ADD:

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165 Comments leave one →
  1. August 25, 2009 8:47 pm

    Oh my God! This is what I would like to say to my daughter today!
    Loved this letter Blabberblah!!

    Thanks IHM!! :D

    • August 14, 2010 12:53 am

      Hi,

      I know you are no longer there, & I came here through IHM, & I dont even know why Im doing this… But I know I just had to. I dont know if you ever saw that movie “Sunshine Cleaning”.. In the very last scene, she picks up one of those satellite phones in her old van which isnt working anymore, the ones they use to talk to other people.. and she talks into it to her mother who had passed on. Its a little different here, but I feel like you’ll listen anyway.

      Im not a teenager & Im not a mom either. But for someone who has been feeling really low & under confident for quite some time (& thats very unlike me) that letter you just wrote filled me up with.. I dont know the correct word – not Hope… But it was like it lifted some burden off my shoulders & said to me, “Its ok. Chill. Theres still time to go back to teh 17 year old me. Mom would have wanted me to.”

      I dont know how many people will read this, but I hope they do because I know it will fill them up with this same feeling & you know whats the best part? – its that you will live forever because of this exact feeling that you made run through me right now.

      Rest in peace kid.

      P.S: I think I wont be ever smoking without thinking of this first. Dont judge me too harsh.. though you probably will. I dont think the smoke will last very long.

      • Paawun permalink
        August 17, 2010 5:09 pm

        I know what u mean

      • Jyoti Singh permalink
        August 18, 2010 3:35 pm

        Hi

        Please Accept my Heartfelt Condolences for the sudden demise of your Precious Child! My heart is crying forfor forthe Irrepairable Loss.May Almighty gives you the Courage to Bear this.My daughter is also in L.S.R n

    • sarika permalink
      August 25, 2010 1:41 pm

      OMG, this is a sought of premonition she had…

  2. Heartbroken permalink
    August 13, 2010 1:53 pm

    This is far and away the most beautiful thing I have ever read.. you can rest sure that my daughter (if I have one) will get a copy of this

  3. August 13, 2010 4:59 pm

    It made me cry reading it now.

  4. August 13, 2010 5:19 pm

    Oh..reading this today made me cry in abondon..tears are poring down and couldnt read it fully…IHM…Sshe was a doll, how u will miss her…
    Sometimes, God is just not fair!

    • July 12, 2011 2:03 pm

      God is always fair. I wish humanity knew this! She filled a purpose she came for . She did while she was alive and she is even when she is gone!

  5. August 13, 2010 5:21 pm

    Tejaswee, just like your name, your energy will keep your Ma move on to the future. Our prayers are with you. Wherever you are .

  6. August 13, 2010 5:34 pm

    To Kill a Mocking bird is my favorite book girl!

  7. Shruti permalink
    August 13, 2010 8:32 pm

    IHM, I don’t know what to say. You both will always be in my thoughts. Hugsss.

  8. August 13, 2010 11:11 pm

    amazing post..

  9. Sameera permalink
    August 14, 2010 8:59 am

    I don’t get it why perfectly Sane and sensible individuals have to go away like that. Bright kid. My heart aches! Beautiful post.

  10. sunder permalink
    August 14, 2010 10:51 am

    Memorable letter………

    I think this letter has written to all the teens of this world…

    I realise the world has lost a wonderful soul too early…

  11. August 14, 2010 11:43 am

    Dear Angel, Bless you.

  12. August 14, 2010 1:36 pm

    I’m not 17 going on 18, but you still spoke to me, and I took your advice to heart. Look after yourself, in your new world, and keep an eye on your mum too. love.

  13. an unknown friend permalink
    August 14, 2010 3:02 pm

    tejaswee , i never knew you in college but i may have passed you, seen you or even met you in the corridors. you must have been a beautiful person because your words are definitely beautiful. i hope you are happy wherever you are and will shower us with your optimism, strength and wisdom because we really need it.

    i’ll miss you, my unknown friend.

    may the stars watch over you!

  14. August 14, 2010 8:32 pm

    i second Mr. Sundar’s words here – “I realise the world has lost a wonderful soul too early…”

  15. prachi misra permalink
    August 14, 2010 11:51 pm

    i’v never read an article which is so moving
    this is something i’ll make my daughter read {if i am blessed with one}
    how i wish i knew you personally tejaswee…..though one thing is sure that you will always be a special person for me and never will i forget to pray for you…this is the least i can do for you.

  16. August 15, 2010 12:09 am

    I was reading Debosmita’s blog today when the footnote had me in a shock! Blabberblah, one of the frequent commentators on my blog’s no more? Life’s too harsh at times. It’s sad, when I think about her. The irony is I’ve never been to her blog till today. And I regret it now, such a lively person, but fate! I think God also makes mistakes at times.

    Tejaswee, I never knew you but your comments always gave me the encouragement to write something new. I’ve lost good reader, a good writer and the world has lost another good person.

    Wherever you are, rest in peace!

  17. Shashank permalink
    August 15, 2010 12:24 am

    i dont know u but happened to read this..and man its Beautiful.!!..The way you have expresses your emotions is inexplicable..! nice.

  18. August 15, 2010 5:01 pm

    Dear Tejaswee, wherever you are, I know you can read me as I’m writing this. Let me tell you that each word of yours to your daughter strikes several chords in my heart, moves me immensely. I may not have met you but it seems as though I’ve known you always. This letter, your radiant infectious smile will always stay in my heart.

    May God bless your soul, sweetheart.

    • August 19, 2010 12:36 pm

      I echo!

  19. August 16, 2010 10:32 am

    I read it over and over again. You were a flame who burned bright and are still lighting up our world with your words.
    I am so glad you are with your mother in spirit…

  20. August 16, 2010 11:25 am

    Ohh Tejaswee ..why did you go ..a woman like you should have lived to raise a daughter..
    Tejaswee , I so wish , I can have a daughter like you

    • August 28, 2010 11:09 am

      i so agree…

  21. August 16, 2010 12:13 pm

    RIP Tejaswee.

  22. August 16, 2010 12:20 pm

    This is one of the best posts I hv read in a longgg time now! We all luv u Tejaswee!

    • August 28, 2010 11:10 am

      yes – one of the best or may be the best post in a long time now…

  23. August 16, 2010 12:20 pm

    Tejaswee, RIP girl !!

    You were a star and you’ll always be shining bright to the world.

    This is the first time I read you..but for sure I’ll never ever be able to forget you.

    May you get the best of all worlds.

  24. August 16, 2010 12:26 pm

    Hey IHM,

    I am so short for words. I just saw this today. May she rest in peace.
    May God give you the strength to deal with it.

    Hugs.

  25. August 16, 2010 7:26 pm

    I cannot put it in words what I’m feeling right now. This is just so hearttouching.May she rest in peace. Take Care.

  26. August 16, 2010 11:39 pm

    i dont know why i feel like leaving a comment.

    Tejaswee …. u would have changed a lot of lives.. i am sure
    God bless you , girl

  27. August 17, 2010 1:28 pm

    Tejaswee – this is beautiful…and i am for sure will make my daughter read this or at least inculcate the same in her

  28. Ria permalink
    August 17, 2010 6:05 pm

    i never thot I’ll ever feel this way….But i miss you…and evrytime i read anythng from ur blog …i cant help the tears….v might nt hve been the closest of frndz…rather nothing beyond hie hello frnds…but believe me…..u were one person i genuinely appreciated and i miss you…toooo much ….:(

    And yea…..i most certainly will hve a daughter someday and she will read this…:)

  29. August 17, 2010 11:46 pm

    May your soul rest in peace. n I hope ur smiling from up above in the heaven and helping all those who loved u n cherished you to cope up with your loss and continue to live life without you. It must be so hard!

  30. Astatine permalink
    August 18, 2010 9:20 am

    Somehow I find myself reading this over and over again. Tejaswee has become an Anne Frank in the blog world. RIP sweet one.

    • Nitu permalink
      September 21, 2010 9:14 pm

      That’s a nice thing to compare her to Anne Frank…….Hope that her ideals be fulfilled.

  31. August 18, 2010 11:24 am

    OMG…i’m at a loss for words. Hard to believe you’re just a teen, you have the maturity and thinking of an exceptional middle aged person…

    I love the honesty, the subtleties, the little details, dreams and aspirations worth a lifetime that you’ve captured in this one page. Wow, this is one thought that’ll stay with me for a long, long time.

    The way you’ve put yourself in your daughter’s shoes, traveled 20 years ahead in time and still kept the flow…commendable.

    Waiting to read a lot more from you…PLEASE keep writing, you have a gift :)

    All the best :) God bless..

  32. rainboy permalink
    August 18, 2010 4:54 pm

    You were a beautiful soul.It’s sad.

  33. August 18, 2010 4:56 pm

    RIP Tejaswee. Your words are touching so many people and creating a positive environment. May you live long through these wonderful words.

  34. r@smi permalink
    August 18, 2010 10:21 pm

    My heart aches after reading this post! I am sure her mom is as strong as Tejaswee was and she will definitely get over the grief soon. As Tejaswee has written, I would suggest her mom to either sponsor an Orphan girl’s education or do something similar to match with what Tejaswee had in her mind… Love you girl!!!

  35. Bhaktimay Ray Chaudhury permalink
    August 19, 2010 11:55 am

    I knew Tejaswi as a very sensitive, warm and humorous person. She will remain the same in my memories.

  36. August 19, 2010 10:23 pm

    ditto to astatine’s words…

  37. August 20, 2010 12:09 am

    I have never read a more heartfelt letter as this.I am sure a lot of mothers to be or mothers are going to send this to their children, I know I am.You were so mature even at such a tender age.Wherever you are Tejaswee,we love you and have so much to learn from your life on this earth.we can all take some lessons on living.

  38. August 20, 2010 2:43 am

    This is like the 50th time I am coming here to read this. Made my husband (he is a poor reader) read the complete post, too!

    We loved, loved every bit of this. Your kid will live to your dreams, Teju! I can a kind of relate to this post, as I used to write such letters to my daughter (hi fi, I too had one) through my diary, (but this maturity at 17 stuns me!). I am more than glad you chose to write in your blog. Else, we would have all missed such a lively, lovely, awesome piece. As I read and re-read, I am reminded of some of the lines from the “If” poem as well. Cheers baby!! You are a masterpiece. Thank you very much for sharing this!!

  39. Indy permalink
    August 20, 2010 7:50 pm

    You would have been one loving mother!!!! Such care and warmth! Such an inspiration to read! :)

  40. August 21, 2010 7:27 pm

    hi…Tejaswee

    i’m probably writing to you from the other end of the world. probably the only things we have in common is the fact that we are both Asians and that i’m a little bit closer to your age…
    I’m writing this because i want you to know…that you are remembered and the beautiful thoughts of yours will always travel in our generation…we all think alike..we all want this amazing world..we all think beautiful thoughts…i would have loved to have met you because i know we would have had loads of crazy fun…
    But..life is difficult and God has taken you away from misery.. heartbreak..and many more disappointments…
    you will be greatly missed…
    And i hope one day..we will meet…one day…
    Today…Now…i think you are amazing…and we all are sending you all our love from everywhere we are writing…
    I hope that your dreams and thoughts will enlighten many lives…and that you will live on….always in our hearts….
    Hugs and kisses..

  41. August 22, 2010 12:08 am

    Awesome posts! I wish, like so many others, I had stumbled across your blog earlier.

    Of course, I never knew you but still feel a kinship to you. Could be because you attended the same college as me, LSR and maybe because you seemed to love words and so do I.

    Thank you, for bringing home SO many lessons in one fell swoop on valuing everyone and everything around us and livingin the NOW!

    You were beautiful!!

    Rest in peace… Tejaswee.

  42. August 23, 2010 4:39 pm

    I came here through Indyeah’s blog….
    I have tears in my eyes right now…. Life is unpredictable.
    I regret, how I missed to read you before, how I missed the chance to know a bright girl like you.
    But i salute your spirit Tejaswee…. your energy will give strength to your family…. may your soul rest in piece.

  43. August 23, 2010 7:33 pm

    Very beautiful..I am so sad that a writer like u and the girl who had such good thoughts is no more.. I can no longer appreciate you..u have melted my heart and I am going to cry at any moment..u have just blown me..May god bless you wherever u are…

  44. Kaushik permalink
    August 23, 2010 8:55 pm

    Beautiful. Beautiful, thoughtful and wonderfully nostalgic.

  45. August 24, 2010 5:42 am

    That’s beautiful!

    R.I.P. Tejaswee!!

  46. August 24, 2010 9:01 am

    tejaswee, the letter you wrote for your future daughter is eternal and universal. you have given all parents the “daughter-bible” and by having something to guide us all, we will forge better relationships with our children. it is sad that your earthbound years were few, but they have left an undeniable impact. go, in peace.

  47. Anupma permalink
    August 24, 2010 3:23 pm

    Tejaswee, RIP.

    truely one of the best reads in a very very long time. thought provoking article.

  48. August 24, 2010 3:46 pm

    I really felt bad after reading it out in the newspaper about such an incident happened to that gir and what her dreams where about life. I truely respect her dreams what she actually admired of. I really felt sorry about what happened to her as I myself have the same views what she had in her life. I know what would be the situation if this happens to a girl who had a bright dream ahead of her. Lots Of wishes to her family for having sucj a kind of girl.

  49. August 25, 2010 1:24 am

    I wish I had had the good fortune of knowing Tejaswee even it was through her blog. This post is being bookmarked to be read each time I feel like I can’t stand up and there’s noone around to help me out.

  50. August 25, 2010 5:03 pm

    RIP you inspiring writer.

  51. Aruna permalink
    August 26, 2010 6:57 pm

    I just happened to chance upon this blog. I have a 6 month old daughter and everything you have written is what I wish for her. Tejaswi, you are an angel, a lovely soul….. I wish my little angel turns out like you.

    May God give your family loads n loads of strength.

    Hugs.

  52. Lavanya Nayudu permalink
    August 27, 2010 8:16 am

    Tejaswee beta hope u r peaceful wherever u r. remember me im Nikkis mom , u both share the same birthday and u both would go to Sat coaching classes. sometimes i wish a Brilliant girl like u would choose a college in US. maybe u would have lived, sorry i know this is just a myth but maybe u would not contract this deadly disease if u were there. Nikki was totally shocked to hear this news and me too. still i cant believe ur no longer there, but ur always in our midst.
    S. be strong and remember that Tejaswee went to a wonderful world and is resting in peace. i wish god to give strength to u and ur Family.

    Lavanya

  53. August 28, 2010 5:17 pm

    What a beautiful post! If I ever have a daughter, or a son, she or he will read this. For now, friends on FB will.

    May you rest in peace Tejaswee.

  54. August 29, 2010 11:48 pm

    Hello aunty,
    i have never worked with her..but i wish i would have in my society the dramatics society of LSR. She is beautiful and she will remain so.. i knew her..she was awesome! Be proud :)
    Lots of love aunty!

  55. Akanksha permalink
    August 30, 2010 10:09 pm

    So very like Tj…
    I have no idea why you ever labelled yourself as shy…
    cause u really arent..sweet yes but shy NEVER.
    You are the only one who ever had the guts to say what you believed in.
    You beliefs were never radical just BOLd. They always made me think that am i really understanding and considerate. Trust me your daughter would have been the luckiest person on earth, cause you are the bestest friend and sister.
    I love you beyond any realm of imagination,
    May death to fail to do us apart
    <3

  56. Devyani Sharma permalink
    September 3, 2010 2:13 pm

    Hi Tejaswee,
    Chanced upon your blog through your Mom’s. You are living on through this and through her.
    May your soul rest in peace.
    Devyani

  57. September 4, 2010 9:21 pm

    WOW… literature lives through the letters… just like old times….

  58. September 11, 2010 7:05 am

    I just read this, and what beautiful writing. I came over here from “Indian Homemaker” blog and I don’t – didn’t – know you. But I feel incredibly sad that the world has lost such a bright, lovely, smart soul. You sound eloquent and intelligent. What a loss. This post made me almost cry…. :(

  59. Nishita permalink
    September 24, 2010 11:51 am

    it make me wil cry..!that was really unfortunate.!

  60. September 26, 2010 8:16 pm

    awww… Tj – i can read this over n over again… :)

    i hav read somewhere – not sure in yours or in your mom’s that if u want to be online – blogging is the option instead of wastin time on other SNS – am really really glad that IHM told that to you… cos all of us r sooo in love with L.M.A.O — u live thru it tj – ur words will always be around… am so glad u blogged ::hugs::

  61. October 4, 2010 3:53 pm

    I can’t get enough of this…. I keep coming back, to realise over and over again, what a truly beautiful person Tj is, and how strong and wonderful her mom is too.

  62. October 6, 2010 4:40 pm

    Dont have wrods to express.. If I have a daughter I would want her to be Like you Tejaswee..

    I admire you and respect you Wish I am 1% like you.. that would be enough to make a good person out of me …

  63. October 22, 2010 3:11 am

    I miss you, Tejaswee… I still don’t think and will never think this was fair.. just NOT fair AT ALL!
    Since you left us so early in this life, I hope that in the next, you’ll be my mother and me, your mom, AN, and V will be your daughters (adopted or otherwise, don’t really care, but you just have to be there)…
    Or maybe you’ll be born in your next life when we’re still in this life of ours.. I hope you’ll be my daughter then or just anyone I become very close to. I just need your presence felt somehow. And I can wait for as long as I can for that..
    Love you Tejaswee… I can see you right now.. You’re that star which I can see from my window, It’s so bright, just like your bright radiant smile..
    We will meet again Tejaswee, I do believe God does give everyone second chances. I did have mine with you when I met you in college again..
    And I believe I will get another one.. I just have to wait longer this time.. but I do believe we will get our second chance.
    Love you forever,
    Roo…

  64. October 29, 2010 5:28 pm

    Wow!!

    what a thought…..

  65. hiren permalink
    November 17, 2010 6:40 pm

    hi dear,
    truly a inspiring blog, this shows that how u loved other and care for them. i am teenge like u nd have seen many student start to smoke after cming in cllg for the shake of showoff.
    i wish that god fullfill u r mothers wish of u beacaming his mom in next life
    R.I.P

  66. Aqua permalink
    December 5, 2010 9:40 pm

    Words aren’t enough to say how much I miss you.

  67. sumedha sharma permalink
    December 5, 2010 10:30 pm

    TJ…yu were d 1st girl i noticed wen i entrd LSR…i used to admire yur beauty… I saw yu den in Kriti’s pg…she told me abt yu…quite a lot… how yu used 2 stay awake wen 1nce yu heard a puppy cryin, cumin 2 d coll on holidays to feed d hungry animalz… i strtd respecting yu 4m dat vry momnt…!nd 2day wen i m reading yur letter ….i culd jst wish 4 1 thng baby…
    Evn i had dengue…y ws i made 2 sty hr..!??? nd yu were gone…yu deserved evry bit of yur life… i hope i culd hv hd a chat wid yu…nd i ll regret dat i neva did becoz i felt shy!!!!!
    bt yu made realise 1 thng 2 day—-in 1st place itz yu ..nd in 2nd itz Kriti Agarwal….
    yu 2 r d mst b’ful people i ll eva knoe…
    I ll show diz lttr 2 my future daughter–Tejaswee!!!! i Promise!!

  68. January 22, 2011 10:50 pm

    I didn’t even know that Tejaswee Rao ever existed just half an hour ago when I landed here. Now I leave this page with a very heavy heart and moist eyes. I don’t know what to say… love you!

  69. S.LAKSHMI KUMAR permalink
    January 24, 2011 12:27 am

    I really felt bad after reading it out in the newspaper about such an incident happened to that girl and what her dreams where about life. I truly respect her dreams what she actually admired of. I really felt sorry about what happened to her as I myself have the same views what she had in her life. I know what would be the situation if this happens to a girl who had a bright dream ahead of her. Lots Of wishes to her family for having such a kind of girl.

  70. S.LAKSHMI KUMAR permalink
    January 24, 2011 12:35 am

    I just read this, and what beautiful writing. I came over here from “Indian Homemaker” blog and I don’t – didn’t – know you. But I feel incredibly sad that the world has lost such a bright, lovely, smart soul. You sound eloquent and intelligent. What a loss. This post made me almost cry…. :

    • S.LAKSHMI KUMAR permalink
      January 24, 2011 12:43 am

      I just read this, and what beautiful writing. I came over here from “Indian Homemaker” blog and I don’t know you. But I feel incredibly sad that the world has lost such a bright, lovely, smart soul. You sound eloquent and intelligent. What a loss. I will pray the almighty to give the peace to that soul.

  71. February 4, 2011 3:04 pm

    oh dear! I love you and would remember you always.. you deserved to be here

  72. N. Mistry permalink
    May 10, 2011 9:57 pm

    Lately, I have been very complaining alot to God that why this and why that… but Then now reading this letter makes me think….. of this loss and I realize… the the World has lost such a good soul… I am in awe of her optimisim about life… makes me want apprecicate life… while seeing through her lens… If I ever have a daughter… I really want to be like her.

  73. susama behera permalink
    June 22, 2011 3:59 pm

    Hi,
    Its one of the most beautiful letter i hv ever read.
    I am keeping this one in my mail documnet, if ever i get a child i will pass this to her/him when s/he enters 13.

  74. July 17, 2011 6:35 pm

    I never knew you, Tejaswee, but I wish I did. I wish I had come across your blog before. I wish..
    I just realized how important even our least noticeable traits are to our characters and personalities. Someday I hope to be as amazing as you were, just for being who I am. Someday I hope to touch someone’s heart as deeply as you have touched mine. I don’t really understand what I’m feeling right now, and I don’t know how to put it in words, but wherever you are, I just want to say Thank you, and Sorry.
    Thank you for living as you did, for writing as you did- from the heart.
    Sorry I never had the chance to get to know you..
    Sing in other worlds, Tejaswee.. I’m sure you’re spreading smiles, wherever you are.. :)

  75. August 31, 2011 11:23 am

    Im going to say this to my son. And he will know it came from you.

    Love
    G

  76. vandanapatnaik permalink
    September 7, 2011 8:53 am

    Beautifully written, by a teenager, but not LIKE one.There’s a certain maturity that shines through this piece.It was preordained, THAT is something I believe in……. she’s happy, where ever she is.Please continue writing and let’s keep i alive :)

  77. October 29, 2011 3:55 pm

    Awww how sweet :) Just love the way the letter is been written :) Wish i could write a letter for my future kids too :D

  78. November 2, 2011 6:53 pm

    What a wonderful soul! I am very sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing this letter with us, and keeping the blog running. The words in the letter are timeless.Someone can read it 25 years or 100 years from now, and it will still be true and relevant.

  79. December 11, 2011 4:56 pm

    I should have said this to you while you still had time.
    I remember this day, when I was new to DPS Pune. You were the headgirl.
    You saw the discomfort in my eyes. You saw me staring blankly at people and being unble to comprehend what they want from me. You saw me walking back home alone.
    and then you came upto me and smiled.

    It was the most beautiful thing ever.

  80. January 20, 2012 9:35 am

    I don’t know what to say, just this..i read it and i loved it..

  81. March 16, 2012 4:31 pm

    Tejaswee, I have lots to say..I just don’t know if I’ll be able to put it the way its in my head. This letter ..was beautiful. I’m 21 and don’t even possess half the clarity and confidence you do. This letter tells me so much about living life and there’s so much to take back from all that you wrote about. This was so inspiring and I just wish I had come across this earlier.
    Lots of love.
    You’re very very pretty btw.

  82. felicity. permalink
    May 4, 2012 10:49 am

    beautiful. and i learned something too, thank you for sharing your wisdom.

  83. May 6, 2012 10:21 pm

    You touch my heart.. You are my inspiration yar.
    God cannot be so mean.. He should give a rebirth to you..

  84. May 8, 2012 3:40 pm

    @IHM: I met you at the Indiblogger meet held in Delhi in 2011. Have been following your blog ever since. Quite a fan ! Chanced upon this blog today and I cant tell you how much I admire you. You looked so young…I couldn’t have imagined you had a college going kid…and welll….that you had been through so much! Tejaswee was a special child and may be, so, God wanted her back! *A big hug* :'((

  85. janhavi permalink
    May 11, 2012 8:07 pm

    this is one of the most beautiful things i have read in a couple of days…Wow!!

  86. Sohan permalink
    August 11, 2012 3:25 pm

    Hey Tejaswee, i hope you remember me wherever you are, we were in the same school, u were in my brothers class and thts hw u got to no me, u were always like an elder sister to me, always helping and supporting, will never forget you and just wanted to say everyone misses you, including me, the news was heartbreaking i hope you are happy wherever you are, I miss you a lot <3 :'(

    RIP, you will always be remembered <3

  87. Nethra permalink
    August 22, 2012 1:26 pm

    i’m lost for words….. just made me happy & sad at the same time. Words that translated my feelings , made me light.
    God bless

  88. October 15, 2012 4:06 pm

    Love you… :) :) :)
    There is a magic- spell in your words my dear… Your words caresses and heals souls…
    You have indeed left out quite a lot for the world…
    ……..

  89. November 22, 2012 2:03 pm

    God! Now I wan to leave a letter for my daughter too. Not that I am planning to die any sooner. But I would like her to know how it was when i was young.

  90. Jeyanthi J permalink
    December 6, 2012 12:15 pm

    i doesn’t know u but ur feely words makes me to cry. U insits everyone to feel for u wit ur spirit. Like u lot. U brought sum changes in me…

  91. Gunjan permalink
    February 18, 2013 4:52 pm

    OMG! People thrice your age could not write like that. So touching, so heartfelt, made me cry. WHY did you have to go? Come back as my daughter!

  92. Garima singh permalink
    June 7, 2013 9:17 am

    Really heart touching

  93. August 3, 2013 4:33 pm

    Dear Tejaswee,
    Reading this blog post is one of the best things that has happened to me in my life. I haven’t met you, and it’s heart-breaking to know that you’ve gone before I could, but reading this it feels as if I already know you. You write very beautifully, and your thoughts are even more lovely. You’d almost be the same age as I am, and your words are a great inspiration to all of us. This letter will keep you alive for people, even in hearts of people who do not know you.
    Oh, and you’ve a very charming Smile.
    Love,
    Payal

  94. latha permalink
    February 21, 2014 2:12 pm

    God!What a letter ,What an inspiration I got ….who wrote to whome ? I felt its from Nehru to Indira Gandhi. Is that true ?

  95. Reema Manoj permalink
    July 22, 2014 12:32 pm

    I don’t know who you are… What you may be…
    But when i read this…i felt like you were someone i know so close…
    As you were clearly talking to me!
    Thank you so much for this letter…cz this is what i needed right now!
    Love you!!! :)

  96. August 13, 2014 3:46 pm

    All I can say is even if I never met u, even If I never met her I some how feel she is around. Can strongly feel her aura. Her blog, ur blog, U and her memories will always keep her alive.

    TIGHT HUGS IHM !

  97. October 9, 2014 10:57 pm

    Reblogged this on ignite the mind and commented:
    I don’t have words to say anything. they are not words they are feelings.

  98. February 5, 2015 12:58 am

    Readind and crying.

  99. February 5, 2015 1:17 am

    Reblogged this on ratnabanerjee66's Blog.

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