You know, when they use the word ‘languish’, i think i finally know what they mean. (Or at least what The Free Dictionary means.)
1. To be or become weak or feeble; lose strength or vigor.
2. To exist or continue in miserable or disheartening conditions
3. To remain unattended or be neglected
4. To become downcast or pine away in longing
5. To affect a wistful or languid air, especially in order to gain sympathy.
And right now i’m feeling the first four, and considering the fifth (it’s a dayumn tempting option!)
The worst is, that i have my exams in around 20 days. And i haven’t even opened my books. Not once. Which is not a good thing.
But that aside, back to languishing.
See it’s not the internet. Though thats what it usually is. I’m still connected.
It isn’t my guilt (not studying). Well… not entirely.
It’s not like my phone’s been taken away. Nope. It’s RIGHT HERE.
It’s definitely not a lack of books. I’ve got pllleeenty of those!
I’m still going to college almost everyday, so it’s not a lack of friends/ good conversation/ intellectually stimulating arguments/ etc.
So WHAT is it?!
It seemed so romantic to languish once upon a time. There was this girl in my school (5th grade, can you imagine?! 5th grade!) who would recount, rather proudly, that she used to cry herself to sleep. And back then, i’ll admit, i was a little impressed! Her life was so fraught with sorrow!
And of course, in books, impassioned men and women would languish, pining away for their love. *O Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo?* But it can’t be THAT, now could it?
Whatever it is, it’s driving me crazy. And hopefully, i’ll find a solution soon.