On Growing Old and Dying Early…
Today at college, i was talking to a Ms C who is a little ill.
Now she’s a bit of a workaholic, and today, hadn’t slept for two days (pro’lly won’t sleep for a few days more.) She is also a bit of a prodigy.
Well, i say, “i think you should go get some sleep, or you’ll be even more ill and as you grow older, it could get much worse.” (yes, very grandma-ish!)
and her reply:
“i don’t plan to/ think i’ll live beyond 35. (so it doesn’t really matter). i’ll have experienced all there is to experience by that time.”
It shocked me a little, actually. And i don’t know why.
I know she’s a huge cynic, and is very intelligent ( are all intelligent people cynics? O.o).
But i never really saw that coming from her.
Ms. C gives the impression that she’s smart, and hardworking, and puts her heart and soul into EVERYTHING she does almost to the point of obsession. When most people would prefer to sleep till late on a saturday morning, she’s the type who’d be up and awake, not wanting to lose a single moment. She seems like such a passionate person. And the thought that someone who has SO much going for her could be so negative (for want of a better word) is a little… scary? It’s like she’s just going to throw that all away…
And she’s in her late 20’s! There’s so much more to be seen and done!
I don’t consider myself to be too much of an optimist. Honestly, i can be a little fatalistic sometimes. But i do hope to live for a very very long time (wouldn’t mind being immortal too!). This world is so HUGE and i want to see as much of it as possible and experience all that i can!
I really don’t know why this is bothering me so much though. She probably didn’t really mean it. Maybe it’s just something she says for… dramatic effect! :P
And even if it isn’t… :S